I spent my entire off day "altering" a wind-breaker jacket. My mom said i did a fantastic job and she thinks i'm good. I liked the design and the hard-work i put in too..............BUT my dad said it looks like it's only $10!!!  Feels damn shitty when you get such comments when 2 other people thinks otherwise.

I won't say the hard-work is as much as sewing up that wind-breaker, but i did put in a considerable amount of hard-work to transform it. It was originally a white & navy blue, boring looking corporate wind-breaker with 2 logos right smack in the front of the jacket. Who would want to wear this kind of jacket out? Would you? I personally would either wear it at home/office or unless i'm working in that company. If i have to wear that jacket out........no way unless it's freezing cold and i have no other jacket to wear. So i thought of doing something to it to make it nicer....y? I'll let you on later....but another reason was cos it's basically a NICE jacket and feels really comfy wearing it, so yeah....i decided to make some changes, n especially to cover up the 2 obit logos on the front of the jacket. So i decided to make use of my collection of coloured wools to do the job cos i thought it'll look good. So i 1stly had to choose the colours that matched and go with the jacket, then measure the length needed, duplicate the length on the rest of the coloured wools, then slowly stick the pieces of cut wool together with glue first. Then when the glue dries out, i ironed the iron on application on the back of the coloured wool strip so that i can iron it on the jacket later. Sounds kinda simple, but just the glueing & ironing the iron on was a torture. The glue n sticky-ness was everywhere!!! Apart from that, i thought the navy blue part was kinda too guyish for me, so i decided to do something about it to make it look slightly more girlish and not so boring, so the glitters came in handy. Lovely blue & silver glitters spreaded all over the navy area !  Sounds simple to "spread" the glitters too...but it's not so simple! Cos the glitters fall off if there's no glue on that part to hold the glitters. So i had to trial and error and found the best way to make it look even out but have the glitters still stuck on. I like the final feel of the glitters, but sad to say i didn't have pink glitters with me, otherwise it would have made the feel much more girlish. Hehe....and since the white area is pretty bare apart from the coloured strip deco, i decided to try out some drawing on the pocket seam. Didn't dare to draw something toooooo big cos i didn't wanna spoil the jacket, so i decided to try the heart shape out first. Looks pretty cute & sweet....hehe. SO after all the description and comment of only being $10 *saddens*.....here's how the jacket/wind-breaker looks like now.

Tell me what you think about it PLEASE!!! Does it really look like a $10 jacket after all my hard-work??? And to make me even more urgh.....my dad said that people wanted to get their hands on this corporate jacket cos of the logo...like i shouldn't have covered up the logos...duh.......!!!

So yeah......y i was so motivated & wanted to spend so much time altering this jacket/wind-breaker.....cos my holiday to Korea is CONFIRMED in Nov!!! YEAH!!!  Am sooooooooo excited over it, and i'm sooooooooo looking forward to it! I've been dying for a long holiday break & finally my tour with my parents have been booked yesterday! So yeah....heard it would be pretty cold, and who knows if it would drop to zero degrees...so to be safe i was asking my mom for a wind-breaker, if there wasn't one that fit i would go get one cos i had a bad experience in Taipei when the cold wind came, i was shaking in cold. So this time i must get prepared for it. So my mom showed me this wind-breaker jacket. I liked it, but like i said, it looked boring & had 2 obit logos in front. That was why i wanted to make the change.

So about the trip.....it's a tour package, won't have dared go back-pack like my manager was saying cos 1stly, i don't know Korean at all, 2nd no right company to back-pack & i'm going with my parents for the trip cos no company for the trips i've been planning. Love my parents for always being sooooo accomodating to me & accompanying me. hehe.....spoilt child i know....but i know my parents love me k! So yeah..back to the trip....Korea...kinda got to me after watching My Name Is Kim Sam Soon lah....and plus no other countries are cold & not sooooo expensive (plus i haven't been too). So i thought of korea, and since my parents were pretty interested too apart from their SOOOOOOOOOOO expensive New Zealand trip plans, they decided to go with me cos i don't have $$ to go New Zealand. Haha....

I seriously don't know anything about Korea at all, so i searched for Korea's tourism board online, and gosh! It's soooo informative. And if you join as a member, you can request for free travel guide and map. So obviously i joined, and i got my copy in less than a week! Finding time to read through it now to at least learn something about Korea. But the most interesting part is the language. I find it very difficult to pronouce, but i must make it a point to learn and hopefully i can "communicate" when i get there. Hahaa...The places we're visiting, i have no idea how they are like too, but just praying hard it's all nice & cool cos it sounded good when the tour agency explained to us. The food too....not sure if i can get accustomed to the taste there, but we've already planned to pack cup noodles along with us in case we can't accept the food....bleh...

So, just for interest, my itenary should be something like below, however subjected to changes....hoping not.

Full Group Tour Package - Korea

8D Korea & Jeju Autumn Foliage (From Mid Oct to Mid Nov) (Code: KJF08)

Highlights

* - Dynasty Value Inclusion Mountain • Autumn Foliage @ Mt Hallasan 1100 Roads * • Mt. Naejangsan National Park with Scenic Cable Car Ride - Maples Autumn Foliage Tunnel * Jeju Island Sightseeing • Mysterious Road * • Tamna MokSeokWon Park * • O'Sulloc Tea Museum * • Jeju Underground Shopping Arcade * • Seongsan Sunrise Peak * • "All-in" Drama filming site: * Seopjikoji Coast * • Seongeubri Folk Village * • Cheonjeyeon Waterfall Park * • Jusangjieolri Seashore Daepo Coast Rock * Hot Spring Spa • Jeonju Juklim Hot Spring Spa Package: * Hot Spring with Green Tea Spa * Warm Black Sand Bath * Yellow Mud Pebble Sauna * Filming Site of Korean Drama • "Red Bean Lady" Drama Filming Site: * Everland (Big 5 Rides) & Magic Parade Show * • "Autumn In My Heart" Drama Filming Site: * Abai Village with Ferry Ride ~ Hwajinpo Beach * • "Daejanggeum" Drama Filming Site: * Hwaseong Fortress with Tram Ride * Korean Food & Cultural Experience • Sampling of Korean Ginseng Juice * • Sampling of Korean Traditional Snacks * • Experience Kimchi Making Class * • Korean Traditional Hanbok Costume * Hot Shopping Spots • Jeonju Outlet Mall Shopping * • Sinchon Fashion Alley * • Myeongdong Fashion Street * • Dongdaemun Market & Shopping Malls * Seoul City Sights • Gyeongbokgung Palace * • Cheong Wa Dae .. etc.. * Gourmet Meals • Jeju Gui Heukdoeji Black Pork Hotplate Grill * • Jeju Jjigae Saba Fish with White Radish Spicy Hot Pot Stew * • Korean Jeonbokjuk Abalone Porridge * • Korean Seafood Shabu Shabu Hot Pot * • Korean Jeongol Mushroom & Pork Casserole Hotpot * • Hanjeongsik Korea Royal Cuisine * • Korean Jeon Pan-Fried Belly Pork & Cuttlefish Hotplate * • Samyetang Korean Ginseng & Tradition Herbs Spring Chicken Soup + Longevity Noodle + Ginseng Wine * • Korean Stewed Duck Hotpot with Oriental Herbs & Korean Ginseng + Grill Duck Meat + Steam Fresh Fish + Bibimbap Rice + Korean Traditional Side Dishes *

Itinerary

DAY 1: SINGAPORE - SEOUL Welcome to a unique experience! Assemble at Singapore Changi International Airport and begin your holiday with a pleasant flight to Seoul.

DAY 2: SEOUL - GIMPO AIRPORT JEJU – KOREAN DRAMA “DAEJANGGEUM” FILIMING SITE - JINJIGUL CAVE – YONGDUAM ROCK – TANGERINE ORCHARD Upon arrival into Seoul, transfer to domestic airport for your fl ight to Paradise Island-Jeju. Jeju is a magical place known for 3 things: roaring winds, magnifi cent rocks and scores of women. Tourist can enjoy each season in Jeju with a particular splash of color. Your tour in Jeju starts with the famous Korean Drama “Daejanggeum’ Film Site - Jinjigul Cave. In episode 54, Janggeum fi nds a woman in labor inside the cave. She performs an operation that saves both the woman and her child. Next see the Yongduam Rock (Dragon Head Rock), a larva formation in the shape of a screaming dragon with its body partially submerged in the sea, before making a quick rise into the sky. Continue to the Tangerine Orchard, here you will find the most famous fruit in Korea. ( meals on board, lunch, dinner )

DAY 3: SEONGSAN SUNRISE PEAK - SEONGUP FOLK VILLAGE - CHEONJIYEON WATERFALL – MYSTERIOUS ROAD – MT. HALLA – *** ½ HR ATV-All TERRAIN VEHICLE RIDE - JEJU UNDERGROUND SHOPPING ARCADE This morning a new excitement of the day starts with Seongsan Sunrise Peak - a volcanic crater offering a splendid view by the coast. Proceed to Seongup Folk Village where you can still see the ancient Korean Style houses with residents occupying the village. They earn their living by farming and handmaking handi-crafts. Enroute to view Cheonjeyeon Waterfall, this is the “Pond of Heaven’s Emperor”. Mt Hallasan 1100 Road, standing 1,950m above sea level as the highest mountain in South Korea, is a dormant volcano with a lake crater at its summit. The entire area has been designated as a nature preservation zone in an effort to protect the rare plants and animals that inhabit the Mountain Park. The mountain takes on the glorious tints of autumn foliage when the translucent Golden Eulalia Flowers & the bright Scarlet Maple Trees cover Mt Halla in autumn red fl ames! Afterwards, an exciting ½ hour Adventure Ride on the mini tractor-like ***ATV-All Terrain Vehicle awaits you! After the basics are mastered on the short fun course, the tour continues into the obstacle course, tree-lined trails and up to wonderful lookout of the sandy beach coastline. Our tour ends today at Jeju Central Underground Shopping Arcade that is worthwhile to visit for bargain buys. ( breakfast, lunch )

DAY 4: JEJU GIMPO AIRPORT - MT NAEJANGSAN NATIONAL PARK - MAPLES AUTUMN FOLIAGE - SCENIC CABLE CAR RIDE - JEONJU OUTLET MALL SHOPPING This morning, after a hearty breakfast, we will catch a domestic fl ight back to Gimpo Domestic Airport. We will coach down to Mt Naejangsan National Park which is one of the best spots in the country to enjoy the autumn leaves, with a totally and vividly red foliage tunnel and several varieties of maple trees with their intense coloration. Upon arriving Mt Naejangsan, take a Cable Car Ride up the mountain to view the beautiful unique scenery which Autumn is said to be the most brilliant where mountain areas are afl ame with autumnal tints during the fall. Later in the day, we will do some shopping at Jeonju’s Outlet Mall, for some bargain buys such as ladies & men clothing, leather goods, bags, footwear, sporting goods and food stuffs. ( breakfast, lunch, dinner )

DAY 5: JEONJU TRADITIONAL PAPER MUSEUM - EVERLAND THEME PARK (BIG 5 RIDES INCLUSIVE) + MAGIC PARADE SHOW – MYONG DONG FASHION STREET This morning, after breakfast, we bring you to Jeonju Traditional Paper Museum that exhibits different kinds of paper with different themes. There are also over 1800 items made of paper as well as relics related to the art of paper. In addition to these exhibits, you will get a chance to make your very own piece of paper just as it has been done for centuries in Korea. Next proceed to Everland Theme Park (Big 5 Rides Inclusive)! It is a huge theme park that houses a zoo, botanical garden, an amusement park with all the thrills and exciting rides! In the afternoon do watch out for the colorful Magic Parade Show with dancers and fl oats. Proceed back to Seoul where Myeongdong Korea’s Fashion Street with a full range of fashion items that cover from head to toe awaits you. ( breakfast, lunch )

DAY 6: “DAEJANGGEUM” DRAMA FILMING SITE: MBC TV STUDIO – *I’CHON SPAPLUS - SINCHON FASHION ALLEY This morning, visit Korean Drama “Daejanggeum’ Film Site – MBC TV Studio. Daejanggeum Theme Park is the fi rst drama theme park to open in Korea. This attraction is located within the MBC Yangjoo Culture Valley, the main fi lming location of Daejanggeum. Filled with adventures, events and fun programs you can get an inside look at the sets or be immersed in the reproduced drama scenes. In the afternoon, indulge yourself at I’chon Spaplus, a well known spa and hotspring theme park in Korea, a place for both the young and old. Try the different indoor and outdoor activities available, and also the health pool which are famous in Korea. Lastly, proceed to Sinchon Fashion Alley, an area where some of Korea’s leading universities are located. ( breakfast, lunch, dinner )

DAY 7: SEOUL - GYEONGBOKGUNG PALACE - CHEONG WA DAE - KOREAN GINSENG SHOWROOM - AMETHYST GEM FACTORY- KOREAN TRADITIONAL FOOD & CULTURAL EXPERIENCE - CHEONGYECHEON - DONGDAEMUN MARKET & SHOPPING MALLS After breakfast, we will start the city tour at Gyeongbokgung Palace. Gyeongbokgung was the main palace during the Joseon Dynasty. It is one of fi ve palaces in Seoul with a 500 year history. Gyeongbokgung is 5.4 million square feet and rectangular in shape. Next, we take a drive and view the offi cial presidential residence of the Republic of Korea known as Cheong Wa Dae or the Blue House. We will stop over at the Korean Ginseng Center’s Showroom for you to purchase what is hailed as the world’s best ancient tonic elixir and stamina builder – Korean Ginseng. We will make a stop to the Amethyst Gem Factory for another round of bargain buys . Next, we have arranged for you to learn and experience Kimchi making. Here in the class, you are taught the process of Kimchi making. After which, you will get to taste the Kimchi you have just made! Next, visit Cheongyecheon, once a busy canal and recently converted into a public gallery with full of activities and delicious eateries open to the public. Last but not least, Shop at Dongdaemun Market where you can fi nd a full range of fashion items from head to toe at a wholesale price. ( breakfast, lunch )

DAY 8: SEOUL - LOCAL PRODUCT SHOP- WOLMIDO ISLAND FERRY RIDE - INCHEON - SINGAPORE This morning you will have some free time to shop at the local products shop which sells ginseng sweets, dry or toasted seaweeds, dried cuttlefi shes, ramen noodle, kimchi,etc… After lunch, visit Wolmido Island. Hops onto a Ferry ride, sit back and relax the serene surrounding as the ferry cruise around. Bid farewell to Seoul as you are transfer to the airport for your fl ight back to Singapore. We hope you had an enjoyable vacation with Dynasty Travel and looking forward to bring you with us to your next holiday destination. ( breakfast, lunch )

Already starting to plan my stuff what to bring and all...hahaha. Very kua zhang...but i'm REALLY looking forward to it. I'll be uncontactable throughout the trip cos Korea's network for mobile is not GSM and my phone would not be working there. I don't think i'll be renting the mobile phone there cos it's pretty expensive and additonal cost. Unless nearer to date i think it's necessary then i might rent...don't know...considering now lah...

So yeah....i'm just feeling very very very excited and high about the trip now! Hehee.... BUT....i need to get past the next stressful Oct month first...wish me all the luck cos i'm left with that problematic colleague again to handle the promotion tour....*STRESSED*. This few mornings although i'm on leave i still wake up suddenly thinking how much time left i am to the promotion tour and what have i not done yet....gosh....B-day next friday, still considering if i should take leave cos the next day have got to work and bring 16 guys for the event...lagi stress. sigh......work work work.....

And had B-day "celebrations" with my gang last nite @ Ajisan, and we spent the whole night talking at TCC. Talked about almost anything we could think of and manage, and i realised, i'm VERY lazy for my social/well-being life. I don't seem to be motivated to make the move to ask people out, spend time out with friends and to make effort to know new people to be friends. I'm living in my small little world while my friends are moving on with more friends in their life apart from our little group of friends.......wat's with me? i don't know. Is it a family thing or it's just me?.......I know i need to open up and know more people...but i'm just not doing it for some weird/frighten/unsecure reasons?.....Not only am i lazy, i'm anti-social too. I don't even make a effort to ask my gang out. My friends are always the ones intitating the outings and they mentioned this last night n i'm guilty of it. I laze at home for 2 reasons, being lazy & to save $$. Outings cost....even if you don't buy anything, you spend on something for sure. Although the last 17k my parents are not rushing me to pay now, but they want me to study. I don't know what to study yet, nor do i have enough $. Life....wat's with it??? Sighz....even the job that i enjoyed intitally is becoming a dread to me. But come to think about it, work is still work. It's a job to give you $ to keep myself alive, and to give me $ to spend. Whether i work here or elsewhere in a diff job, a job is still a job. But when i listened to my friends last nite talking about pay and all...i'm just a low-pay earner and being stagnant. I'm not moving on like many others who are.....i don't like too many changes and yet i don't want my life to be toooo stagnant...i'm confusing myself again.........And even exercising for my own well-being....nothing is motivating me to move my butt off my home seats....i very much want to exercise, but i'm not doing it. Partial reason being i don't have company to exercise with. Excuses excuses excuses!!! I know i have to move...but i'm just not. What can motivate me to move??....................... sigh!!!!!!!!!

I was feeling very depressed after the meet-up last night, but at this moment, i'm feeling very tired and can't remember what i was depressed about last night already. Need some energy to force my brain to re-reflect and recall.......

So that's about it for now....sleeping time soon.....nites!

Oh My.....this is confirmed that i have resemblances to Sam Soon!!!

My ex-student said that the way i talk is very kua zhang like Sam Soon, and my hair looks like her's too....gosh. Start to see the resemblances now?? So many points which are alike......if u feel any other pointers which is like her tell me ya? Cos it's amazing how a character on TV can be so close to me hor......sighz....

And am i really that kua zhang when i talk? Can someone give me an example?.....

<<My Name is Kim Sam Soon>>

Still feeling VERY stuck in the midst of the drama! Haha....stayed up late for 2 whole nites, and spent almost 3 entire days watching all 16 episodes of the drama on youtube. Was so thrilled to have found all the episodes there and saved me of the $$$ from considering of getting the vcd....hehe.(but just for your info, it's in Korean, but some kind soul have put in the english subtitles) Anyways, the show is actually showing on Channel U now, and i wasn't the less bit interested in the show initially, but somehow i switched channel one fine night, and i got stuck on the show. And cos i didn't catch the beginning of the show, and very much wanted to know if Sam Shik liked Sam Soon, so i made a search on youtube to try my luck n BINGO! hahahaa....

Ok...so meL is still VERY cheng zui in the show right now....and what got me all stuck on the show? I don't know either.....but somehow there seems to be some similarity of Sam Soon with me...but of cos she's way more vocal and tough in personality than i am....but somehow i feel a resemblance between me and the character Sam Soon. Hrm...example....somehow no fate with guys...or rather good character, good looking, rich/cute guys?hehehe....& we're both the youngest in the family, plump and not so pretty as compared to her sisters (just like my case where i've got a pretty, slim n smart elder sister), just want a guy to love me but can't find one....and having a commonly known nerd name....etc. Haha...And probably my way of dressing is very much like the character in the show as well. I could like really relate to how the character feels in the show for some parts...and sooooo sad, but at parts soooooooo happy n sweet. Anyway the ending was not too bad nor very good cos in the end, they did not show if Sam Soon got to marry Sam Shik even though the last scene was them still being VERY in love and holding hands & all....but the narration did mention that Sam Shik's mom was still against their marriage...so....hrm.....maybe there will be part 2 of the show where they'll get married and have kids & stuff. Haha...

Very very very sweet when finally Sam Shik has decided that he likes Sam Soon and telling her that he likes her. & also when they finally got together....very sweet. If only all ugly ducklings (including me) can have such wonderful ending to find a loving guy who's like damn good looking, rich and capable....hahaa....DREAM ON i know....i'm day-dreaming now indeed...wahahaa. Can't blame me ok? Cos Sam Shik (acted by Hyun Bin) is like sooooo drop dead good looking lah. Even though his character in the show is like quite extreme n sometimes childish & idiotically irritating at times, but probably that's what made his character so love hate kinda feeling. Like the saying always goes, "Nan Ren Bu Huai, Nu Ren Bu Ai." so probably that's how Sam Soon got tricked into liking Sam Shik also...hahaha....but seriously lah, if i'm Sam Soon i'll probably fall for Sam Shik also lor.

And the saying in the show that LOVE is childish and foolish...i personally feel that it's quite true even though i haven't gone into a relationship before....but watching the show, seeing relationships around me, it's true. When a person is in a relationship, somehow everything else doesn't seem to matter anymore and everything is about the person, and one becomes irrational and behave unlike how you normally would.....cos you feel ALOT for the person that you wanna care for everything, but the more you care, the more hurt you feel. Am i right people who have been in relationship b4?

But at this very point of time.....i'm like Sam Soon...waiting to find a good guy to love me........can i make a wish that mine will be as good as Sam Shik? Wahahaa...dreaming again....*slaps myself* hahaha...but seriously lah, i'm really kinda like what Sam Soon is going through now...just that i'm not 30 yet, but touching 24 in erm...like slightly less than 1 month's time. I believe that relationship needs time to build up, so i need time to build up my relationship before marriage...so if by now i don't find/get a potential bf/husband to be, then how to have enough time to build up the relationship? I have no idea either......everyone is telling me to be patient & wait for the best, OR they tell me to go out more...but i've got no $$ to spend on always going out, and i have no interest in guys who love clubbing also, so......wait lor i guess....but somehow i wonder if my listed down ideal, is it too much a dream kinda partner that doesn't exist sometimes......but i guess as time goes by i'll know lah. Oh, and know what? I think i'm still VERY childish somehow like how Sam Soon can be in parts of the show, and i think probably being in a relationship would make me grow up just like how Sam Soon became more mature towards the end of the show in some aspects. So wish me good luck that Mr Right would appear for me soon and i can grow up to be a LADY soon.....sighz.....

Oh! and one thing i REALLY DON'T LIKE about the show is Sam Shik asking Sam Soon for sexual intercourse after they were like confirm confirm together. I know it's very common nowadays, but is that all guys can think of? I mean stuff like hugging and kissing maybe understandable, but to have sex even before marriage.....??? Maybe i've got very traditional upbringing from my parents that have taught me to NOT do it before marriage..but even to show it in the show is like not very healthy isn't it? Oh well....i guess it's up to individual's thinking for this at the end of the day.

Oh oh...and about the 2 mothers' reaction over their kids' relationship is pretty interesting also. Protrays the chinese saying of "Meng Dang Hu Dui". Quite sad that poor background can't go with rich background kids...but Sam Soon n Sam Shik have given "hope" for this to happen...Oh like Singapore's Zero Degrees C drama also lah between Rui En and Elvin Ng....hahaa. Well..maybe someone out there in this world is indeed doing it? We won't know....but goes to show the class difference which is realistic and very ugly & sad....

Well well...and not to miss out that the show's main cast many are Shuai Ge n Mei Nu. Sam Shik's ex-girlfriend, Hee Jin is quite pretty/sweet, Sam Soon's elder sis is very pretty also. And Henry Kim in the show is very shuai as well. But of cos Sam Shik is the most shuai to me in the show....hahaa...and Sam Shik's niece in the show is very cute too.

Yeah yeah.....so by reading my post.....i guess you can feel that i'm still very stuck in the drama settings and all...probably need another week or so to fade off...maybe? Oh well...and now i have the urge to learn Korean. Hahaa. But after the whole show, i know that Ah-na-ha-say-yo = greetings like welcome or good morning, something like that. Then Kam-sa-ha-mi-da = thank you. Sarang Hay-you = i love you.  Probably i got the "spelling" wrongly, but that's how they pronounce right?.....hahaa...ok..i'm getting a little overly high here now...

ok lah...that's about it for now....but Pssh....know what? Hyun Bin is ONLY 3 days younger than me! But we are very different in terms of look hor? Sad lah....Have got another artiste that i know personally who's 12 days older than me...also a guy.....oh well......

Oh.....and i'm kinda stuck to Dong Fang Shen Qi (TVXQ / TVfXQ) as well now after watching their concert in KL last month. They can sing (acapella), dance very well, write their own songs, choregraph their own dance n acting now. Importantly, average age of 20 or less. Bright future. Very charming on stage as compared to their promo pics...Hope singaporeans would start noticing them from now since there's TV ads up now.

P/S: Those of you interested to watch <<My Name is Kim Sam Soon>> on youtube, you can get the links from me. I've taken the trouble to re-find the clips after watching, cut n paste the links down so that i can share with all of you.

P/S 2: After posting my update, someone i have known a long time ago and not very close guy friend commented that my MSN display pix i look pretty....duh...then where's my Mr Right???!!!

Very Meaningful Touching Story.....

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so. I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded.

I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly. She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer. On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn t tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled.

But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.

I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more.

Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Got this story from my best friend, Zhenli's blog. Thought it was a very meaningful n touching story to share with you all.

**Please treasure your marriage life in future!**

I think i've got a terrible problem of emotional mood swing....i'm feeling much more chirpy today....reason being the drama that i have been following through had a good ending which i wanted. wahahaha......

Those in Singapore and have watched Ai Qing Ling Du C (Love Zero Degrees C), She Weixiang is such an ideal boyfriend!!!!! If only in real life there is such a person man...rich, good looking, very very sensitive and loving towards the girl, capable....and watsoever that makes the character soooooooo oh my god...hehehe. If there was a clone of this character in real life, i'm sure many many girls would be falling head over heels for him...including me!!! Hahaha....mel is a little hyper now....but how i wish i could just be like the female lead Sun Yixin....soooo fortunate lah......

Seriously initially i thought the show would be pretty crappy n i never thought of following through the show...but i got stuck to the show...hahaha. N i cannot deny that Elvin Ng is soooooo good looking. Hahaa....saw him in person b4. Very sharp features, SHUAI! But oh well......good looking is for looking only lah at the end of the day....so after the hype of the show, should get real n live in the realistic world again.

Anyway, work seems so so today at work..nothing extremely bad that stirred my emotions at least. I MUST remind myself to keep my cool n don't talk very Kua Zhang-ly.......Gotta keep reminding myself lah.....

And David Tao's new album is out today....but i still don't feel the urge to get the album yet....am i out-growing the craze, or David Tao is making me feel a lack of confidence in his music? I don't know.....we'll just wait n see.

And today so funny.....my boss was thinking of ideas for new projects, then he jokingly said that my colleague n i can sing in a new project which he's planning then we can arrange our own promotions....wahahahaa.......but i wish i'll have the chance one fine day. I only wanna sing n have a song of my own.....but not be an artiste lah......

And the most exciting thing keeping me a little more chripy today is that my computer would be coming tomorrow! Yeah...something to celebrate. Hehe......

So anyway, to conclude today's entry....a clone of She Weixiang would be a good choice for meL....hahahahaa.